LoL as if we would fight about an ipod

of course J. was not mad at me, and although we fussed alittle bit at each other due to nerves it wasn't bad at all. Dawn has yet to touch the ground here and I am up because I had to take a round of meds right excatly at this time to prepare myself for surgery. Ok I'm really scared that I'm not gonna make it this time. Each time my body has seemed to hate come back out a little bit more. I wouldn't mind dieing so much only I love my hubby so much that I really don't want to go. I also have all this poetry....... I always met to get it together and self publish for my friends and family at the very least. Some of it is actually really good! No really, it is. I talk about the war, and about subjects close to my heart some politcal some personal. It seems like such a waste... and then there was this kids story I met to write..... but I just never got around to it. It was for Gabbies kids but then they went and grew up and LOL they were boys...... all my friends going around having boy babies! I wish .......... ah well there is dawn....... and a yelling cat at my feet.... and all the wishing in the world won't give me more time. I will be back! I'm gonna be alive and I'm gonna be ok! I love you all, even with spam! And don't forget my idea down below! I want those kids taken care of darnit! Make sure you guys keep talking to people an idea can only die when no one cares.