Ashli asks
"achro, do you have problems with dehydration on a somewhat regular basis, i.e., are you nauseated/puking a lot? i know i'm probably telling you something you already know, but if you're having issues with dehydration and that is causing gallbladder sludge/stones, then you've kind of got to get a handle on it, lest you develop some serious gallbladder disease and have to get it 86'd. if you need some hydration support while you work on your other health issues, you could go on a line. midline will last 14 days, but you might need to go on a picc for a while. i dunno your specific health needs, but i really encourage everyone to demand excellent health care. ashli | 04.10.05 - 9:09 pm |"P
Yes I do ashi, apparently some people with WLS (weightloss surgery) are unable to even retain water. I never knew about a picc line........ so I didn't know to ask for one. But I will next time you bet. Right now I'm being treated with salt pills and it is working... geesh to think there was something called a picc line that I could have had this whole time!!!!!!! I hate our medical care system..... I hate each and every one that lets me suffer because they don't have time or they think I'm to young or to nice or what ever. I just went to the doctor today to get a work up for the sonication thing next week........... and I say, " hey I'm feeling a lot more pain then I was a few weeks ago... I'm taking tylonal" and you know he just brushed it off...... didn't ask me how much pain I was in or to rate it on scale nothing. People have a tendency with me to think I either know a lot or I know nothing........ and the truth is I know a lot about mice and how to use them as a model for testing things.... that's what I know.... I sometimes know a lot about a certain type of problem because I've been on projects dealing with that type of medical problem.... but I donna know a heck of a lot else. I'm just a lay person who trys to work hard so that people who do know can do their work.
On another topic that some of my readers will appreciate....... so I'm driving down the highway lementing that I've gained a few lbs..... still in my size 4.......... and I get this thought in my head.... "if I was 102lbs then everyone would love me more" now I was sooo sick at 126 lbs that even if people did love me more I didn't notice. So WTF is wrong with me that I just totally thought that....... and then I swear I looked down at my hand on the wheel and I could see it just crushed in shards of glass and blood...... the thought itself was hurting me.... I could see it. And this thought just kept going " I will never be good enough unless I get down to 102lbs" WTF... I know I'm good enough...... I do good things....... I know that. But I just struggle sooo hard with this eating thing. I swear I'm coming back as a cat where no one will care and I can sit in the sun.
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I think it isn't other people who are judging yo so harshly but yourself. Seriously, have you gotten any counseling? I really really think it would be a good idea to get some psychotherapy, especilly in light of what you're going through. If *I* had insurance, I would be.
Thanks for your consern Chasmyn but I don't believe in psychotherapy for myself. I have tried it many times and it has always been a compleate waste of time and money for me. I believe I have a spritual problem, which is part of why it is a waste for me.... psychotherapy is not there to help in matters conserning the sprit or is woefully inaquate to do so. 'Sides I would never let an insurance co. pay for that kind of thing as then they would have it written down somewhere.....and I just donna think that is anyones business. So it comes out of my pocket to.
Luv ya
achromic, are you getting peer support at least? With my PTSD, the best thing for me was professionally-guided GROUP counseling. My PEERS were the people who had the wisdom I needed; the professional was just there to moderate and make sure it stayed healthy. It was an amazing process. And it took me years to stumble across it after futile attempts to get help from various professionals.
achro, i don't know the history, the ins and outs of you... so i don't want to be wreckless with my comments...
however, i can feel you on the comments re: psychotherapy. it's nice to have someone to talk to when it's either that or you're seriously going to kill yourself. been there done that. but outside of a secret internal crisis, i don't go for shrinks, and i get so sick and tired of the whole hackneyed, "have you talked to a shrink? you should get professional help." like that's going to solve anything. ugh. you talk til your eyeballs fall out and you leave the office with the same stinking problems, the same stinkin life. sigh...
Christ, baby. Christ and blogs... and not the "Christ" that everyone throws at you like "get some professional help", but the real relationship, the one where He can find you in the dark... and you allow yourself to BE found.
i love ya, girl... i really do, and i'm praying for you big time.
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