Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Doctor stuff

well. I went to one eval the pyshic one and......... totally failed. Not only could he care less that I am haveing sucidal epsoides but he won't think about treating me in any fashion until I am either on aquiate pain meds .......er I think........... and the Pain Doctor...... won't trust me when I say a medication isn't working and I am having anxsoity and suicidal epsoides. I have already started crying to day and it is only 5:39am. I have a few more evals to do this week. I have a visable problem........ that they have put off talking care of for a long time............ the pain doctor, I don't that she believes that it hurts........ I was told it was a maybe mild discomfort...... but it if this is discomfort then I donno............ well...... so......... I gotta go back and I gotta say all this stuff and I am pretty sure that given my exp so far........ that talking to the pain doctor will be like talking to no one at all.

7 Comments:

Blogger Granny said...

Are you saying you're in a Catch 22? I totally understand, having a husband in hospital at the moment.

Sometime's they seem like they run in circles.

I had an orthopedist and a neurologist get in a pissing contest over my handicapped girl one time - using me as their referee.

C'mon guys - you make the big bucks. Grow up.

7:11 AM  
Blogger a Peach said...

Hey babe.. I've been reading you for a while and I don't think I've posted before, but I thought I might today.

Have you tried telling your doctors what you just posted? Have you tried saying to them, to their face, "I don't think you are listening to me. I feel like you are marginalizing my pain and I feel like you are placating me and treating me as a child. I know how bad this pain feels and I expect you to help me manage and/or fix it. It is not natural and it is your JOB to be my advocate, not to ignore me. If you feel you can't be my advocate, you need to find someone who will be."

I'm currently in a situation like yours where I've definitely got something wrong and no one wants to deal with it - brushing me off, saying that what I feel isn't really there. I never say anything becuase I think they are the "experts" and *should* be doing the job and who am I to say otherwise. But you know what? If you don't speak up, they'll keep on doing what they are doing.
And if they come back with, "Well, what do you expect me to do?" You reply that you expect them to do their job, find out what's wrong and fix it. Period. If one thing doesn't work, they need to try another and another and listen to you until it's fixed. Period.

And as always, if you have tried this, or think this is simply assvice, please feel free to ignore it and simply take away that I care about you and am always hoping you'll be able to find some relief from your pain. :-)

Caring and thinking about you..

7:48 AM  
Blogger L. said...

How awful. There are good doctors out there -- but it sounds as if they don`t include these particular members of the team treating you.
Hang in there -- we can`t help you, but we feel for you!

11:32 AM  
Blogger Milenka said...

Oh, sweetie, I'm sorry you;re still in so much pain. I wish there were something someone could do. *hugs*

9:08 PM  
Blogger Lionmom said...

that pisses me off! why are doctors such asses? keep fighting, even though I know you are tired.

5:49 AM  
Blogger cebii said...

Wish I could come out there and yell at the doctors for you. fight, fight, fight. Wish I could send Robert my acupunturist - he's good with pain. But I can't. I'm sending strength vibes as hard as I can.

We are with you.

6:41 AM  
Blogger Silent Rain Drops said...

I've been fuming for you - the pain doc actually said she knows how much pain you're in better than you do? What test did she use to measure this objectively - I'd like to know, because if such a test exists, every one should use it, and quit bothering us with the "Where's your pain today on the pain scale?" business. Humph. The arrogance of some physicians knows no bounds!

I'm in agreement with your other friends, here - keep trying until you find a doctor who will listen to YOU.

6:51 AM  

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