Tuesday, March 14, 2006

ok ok ok srry I thought when no one said anything that

no one cared anymore. But ummmmmmm well now I am feeling loved and a bit stupid. I will stay Achromic will stay will write everyone and say that to you each and every one. I never met to have a big blog and I am fine with it being small............. but it hurts a lot to pour out your whole misspelled heart and hear silence................... ummmmmm except there wasn't really because Val ALWAYS wrote but I was depressed and I forgot and Gawdessness WOULD always write only her computer is down and I forgot because I was depressed. The depression and panic are kicking my ass folks............ no really. I spent yesterday in tears......... no not just like a few minutes here and there ......... I spent almost the ENTIRE day crying hysterically over............. ummmmmmmm a misunderstanding and thinking you guys where gone and thinking that ......... see the paranoia is also kicking in someone here that KNOWS ME might have decided they hated me enough to give out my info to someone who scares the crap out of me. The misunderstanding was foolish and so was the paranoia and *blushes furiously* I can see that you are all here......... Forgive me all of you. They are trying to stop the pain with inaquit medication because I am so allergic to everything else. The pain is real...... you can't come over and poke on me.......... I keep trying to make it NOT real and that is part of my problem it is a huge part of my problem ...... is that I keep trying very hard to change that I am in pain.


Blogger Granny said...

Hi. I read your comments all the time and now I'm here.

I'll come back and read later after I get kids out door.


Ann aka granny

6:28 AM  
Blogger Granny said...

Ok I have a little better idea of you now.

I'll try very hard to get back here when I can. I know about loneliness and thinking no one is listening.

Ann aka granny

6:53 AM  
Blogger L. said...

You should install a site meter, because it`s free and easy to do, and I`ll bet you`d be surprised at the number of clicks you get everyday.
When I first stted blogging, before I installed mine, I would think, "Wow, only one comment -- I`m practically alone here." But now I know that my friends read my blog even when no one is commenting - they just don`t have anything in particular to say, or they don`t have time and resolve to do it later, etc. But I know people are still reading.

Internet friends can be REAL friends, just as real-life friends can turn out to be FALSE friends!

12:46 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am J., the Achromic Spouse.

I've told the Mrs. that I don't think it's appropriate for me to be a part of this, because this is her thing with her friends. That said, I read the blog all the time and I'm glad she's decided to keep doing it.

11:04 PM  
Blogger achromic said...

YAYAYAYAYAYYAAYAYAYA all of you!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes Granny you hit the nail on the head I am very lonely. I am a very chrimantic person by nature.......tho loud.... but chrismatic and just so....so full of life.

I., I thought about the sitemeter but I am afraid there are less not more.... so I haven't made myself do it. Maybe I need to get the courage up to tho'. I will talk to my mom and J. and try and decide if I think site meters are part of 1984 or I am just scared of what they might tell me.

J. thank you. As always you are the best husband any girl could ask for. You are better then any superstar brad pitt guy you aztonde me at every turn.

5:34 AM  
Blogger Granny said...

The site meter is fun. I'd had my blog a few months before my friend put it on for me.

I can sort it out by countries and look at searches.

I don't look at mine every day - just when I happen to think about it.

7:08 AM  
Blogger MonochromaticRainbow said...

I'm so sorry I haven't been posting. Life got really hectic here and I haven't been myself lately, but I'm catching up today. We haven't even really been gaming lately either, too much going on. I'll try to keep in touch better I promise. And I'm glad you're feeling better. *hugs and love*

7:49 AM  

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