Back to being me

I am me again........ that is right..... I am not sad...... only a little scared........ not feeling all messed up and not in nearly as much pain. Came off of the pregablin/Lycra and seriously within a few cuts down of the stuff my family was saying "hey there's Achromic again". I am.......... angry as hell because I said more then once that I didn't feel like the meds were working and that I felt all wrong and NO one would let me stop taking this stuff. But now I got to figure out what to do next. The thing is ........ I still got a zyphoid process out of places....... and from what I understand that is pulling on the diphrame and muscles....... this is the greatest part of my pain problem (not sure I agree with that as I still feel pain in my urineary tract and kidney BUT ok) BUT I still got this they have never done any adjustment to put it back into place...... and I want a second opinion. Not only in what is wrong but in what the best course of action is. AND I don't want to be detoxing off the pain killers until they take care of the largest cause of pain. Period. Now if I can only be so clear and so strong with the doctors........ I am afraid they are gonna force me to detox fast by not filling my 'script and I will be sick sick.......... but even that ...... would be a relief in a way........ sick sick and hurting lots but done......... just on my way doctors that can do what they said they would which is to put this bone back into where it belongs........ and then ............. then we will come after you Kasier........ true you stop us in abertration but you will atleast pay something..........