Prozax nation

Well so, they want me to give prozax a try. Now I'm against this for many reasons, like I donno it causes some people to become suicidal. BUT the pain is becoming so bad that I don't have much will left to argue it with them either. "They" say that it has pain relieving properties........ I donno...... maybe it does......... or maybe they just think I'm crazy and this is a nice way of giving me meds without you know coming right out and saying your nuts. But I mean how crazy is it to have 5 surgeries in 2 years and be pissed as hell because you still hurt? How depressing is it? Shouldn't you be sad if that is what has happened? If they start saying well we may have to go in again to relieve the adhesions that are causing you pain... wouldn't you be a bit upset? Is that really nuts? I mean if that is the possibility wouldn't you feel a bit like life was out of your control? I donno, I went and picked up and took one..... because I want to feel better and I donna care anymore how that happens..... and I feel like a buzzing in my head (not a buzz dude like a pot buzz) the buzzing I can feel it in my teeth. It is not pleasant and I feel very not hungry. They said to give it a week...... we shall see.